You all know the feeling – you work your butt off for weeks or months, and then suddenly the goal you thought would never arrive, does. You’re finished. You’ve achieved what you set out to do. You should be feeling euphoric. Instead, the whole thing feels like an anti-climax, and you feel blah.
That’s me right now. Four months ago I set out to complete my Certificate IV in Training and Assessment. Yesterday I achieved my goal, and fairly well, if I do say so myself. So why do I feel so flat? Where is the euphoria?
To be honest, that last question is really a rhetorical. I’ve been here before, many, many times. I should have been expecting the deflation. Yet it still caught me by surprise.
Oh I admit there was a moment of euphoria yesterday, when I handed in my last assignment and realised that I’d done it, that the great struggle was over. But that moment was overshadowed by a bit of sadness as we said goodbye to our trainer, and each other. Our Wednesday classes were over too, and all the people I’d come to know were going their separate ways. We will meet up again at graduation, but it won’t be the same because the glue that bound us will be gone.
So here I sit, mulling over the incontrovertible truth that the journey is always its own reward. And I have enjoyed this journey. Now I’m going to give myself a couple of days off, and then I’m going to start the next journey on my list, I’m going to start looking for a job.
I don’t expect the job hunting to be pleasant, but I will try to find something enjoyable in the process because, really, the process, the journey, the striving is where the true payoff lies.
Ultimately, it’s the little successes along the way that make us happy, not the moment of euphoria at the end. Carpe diem. 🙂